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The Unintended Gift: A Kitten in a Box Under the Tree in 1970, and Where She Led Me

My first cat, Bootsie
My first cat, Bootsie

Now it’s time for my own rescue story, my first cat, how I came to fill my life with cats after her and found them all to be the purrfect muse for me.

Yes, I really did get a kitten in a box under the Christmas tree when I was a child. The story is not glowingly happy and, in fact, comes with a tissue alert, but led me to the cat who eventually became my “first” kitty, and the rest is history. Because the story kind of begins on Christmas morning 1970 it’s my pleasure to share it each Christmas, the day it all came together for me, my love of cats, learning to care for them and finding in their grace and beauty the muse that would lead me to painting, writing, photography and my life as an artist.

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When I was nine years old, I remember telling my parents and my older sister what kind of animals I liked. I don’t know if this was in response to a question, but I do know I explained completely and with determination, telling every last detail what I liked about birds and squirrels and cats and dogs and horses and rabbits, all the animals I had encountered in my early 1960s suburban development childhood.

I remember telling my sister that I liked cats best because they were easier to take care of than dogs, knowing many dogs who were permitted to run free and kind of wild and picking my way through “dog dirt” in the back yards, and if I had to choose I’d choose a cat. I don’t know how I knew this except that in those days people didn’t get their animals neutered and, except for hunting dogs in their cages, all animals were allowed to roam. Dogs were loud and seemed to get into more trouble with fights and biting people as some roaming dogs will do, and I had my share of small bites from trying to pet dogs who weren’t interested. And then there was the clean-up issue in everyone’s yards, even yards of people who didn’t have a dog, and I was a barefoot child by choice.

Cats, on the other hand, were uniformly small and seemed to be very quiet and gentle and neat, and this appealed to me. I was shy, I was dreamy, I didn’t like loud noises, I was most comfortable in the company of animals, even wild animals, because they didn’t find me odd and weren’t bothered by my silences as humans were; I had a number of speech impairments that often made speaking difficult and embarrassing. Animals didn’t mind when I studied at them without explanation, in fact, they encountered me in much the same way. As an “artist in training” I was a focused observer even at that age. I was outdoors quite a bit roaming the old pasture that was all that was left of the farm our houses had been built on and exploring the woods and waterways of every ravine and hillside, so a dog might have seemed a likely companion for me. But I pictured myself curling up with an animal to read, and that would be more likely one of the nice kitties I had met around the neighborhood.

Every time I learned there was a litter of kittens in the neighborhood, and there always seemed to be one or two litters, I was an annoyance to the owner wanting to see the kittens, and an annoyance to my family wanting to bring a kitten home. Once I helped a neighbor catch two small kittens that had been born and raised in their yard to a mother who had disappeared, and I took them home hoping to keep them, but they only stayed overnight, playing on my bed and curling up to sleep and purring incessantly, and likely went to a shelter. That might have been a foretelling of rescues to come.

The box under the tree

So the dream came true that Christmas when I was nine and there was an orange kitten in a box under the tree, a tiny six-week-old fuzzball ready for play when let loose from the cardboard carrier. I know little Rusty got no respite from me crawling around on the floor after him—on all fours like him too, right under the tables and such, and I was thrilled when, exhausted with batting walnut shells and chasing ribbon, he curled up in my convenient lap, a warm, pliable, purring bundle, a little life right there on my lap.

Prepare yourself for the sadness, but the day after Christmas he didn’t play as much, the next day he began to vomit and two mornings later he died in my brother’s lap. I was inconsolable, not understanding that he probably contracted the “feline enteritis” that killed him before he even came home. With the lack of spaying and neutering, shelters could hardly handle the volume of animals surrendered by people who really didn’t know what else to do. Illnesses were rampant, everyone simply hoped for the best, and my loss wasn’t rare.

I spent the next day with my sister, who had graduated high school and had a job and took me to work with her. My parents did what they felt was the right thing for me, but was the wrong thing for the animal, and while I was with my sister found another kitten for me from a different shelter. Tiger, a handsome dark tabby with white paws and bib and a few weeks older, would probably have been okay if we had waited a few weeks and removed all the toys and dishes from Rusty. When he grew ill, my parents took him to a veterinarian who tried valiantly to save him, but we lost him a few days after the new year.

Painful losses did not stop me

But I was by no means ready to give up on the presence of an animal in my life. I had been horribly hurt, one of those childhood hurts that remains and with time turns into a lesson. Still, the memory of the pain was not as strong as the memory of Rusty and Tiger sleeping in my lap, their fur against my hands, the dream come true of their purr in my ear at night, watching them play for hours filled with unbelieving joy that they were in my life, they were mine, even for the brief time they had shared it. I longed for it again. It would take much more than two losses to overshadow the joy.

Getting a pet was totally out of character for my parents, and looking back I have no idea who made the kitten decision or why, but later in life I was pretty sure my parents had decided against replacing the kitten one more time. Two months went by, and after I had repeatedly asked when we were going to get the other kitten, my parents decided to give it another try.

They took me to the shelter this time, the Western Pennsylvania Humane Society as it was in 1970, and it was my first experience with the pressing overabundance of animals, dogs barking, cats yowling, the smell of urine and the sight of concrete and cages that had been hosed down. I crept past them all, really fearful at the strangeness of it all but keeping my eyes locked on the cat cages knowing one of those kittens or cats would go home with me.

gray and whtie cat on bed
Bootsie waits for me to come to bed.

I came back to a cage at my eye level that held three kittens, two solid gray bundles who wrestled endlessly and occasionally leaped on a third who was cowering in the back of the cage, and who cringed when they came for her. She was gray with white paws and bib and a white blaze on her face, and when they took her out of the cage and let me hold her, she buried her face in my chest and trembled. Perhaps I felt a kinship with her timid nature, her need for quiet and comfort. Bootsie rode home in my coat, me in the back seat looking down at her and telling her not to worry, feeling her warmth against me, her fur under my hand, her cold nose against my finger.

A litter of kittens

Because it was winter she was indoors with me until spring came and she was a little bigger, but she went into heat in May when she was only five months old. In those days cats weren’t spayed until they were six months old, or even older, and with my brother and me always running in and out and my father leaving for work in the bakery at night it was impossible to keep a determined cat in her first heat in the house.

We heard yowling and screeching in the front yard one night when she’d slipped out the garage door as my father left for work, and the next morning she was cowering under the stoop by the front door. Two months later she looked at me confused when her water broke on the windowsill and she tried to give birth on the couch, but my mother put her in a box on the floor with a blanket. My brother and I watched her give birth to seven kittens, she losing energy and interest after number 5 but managing to eventually clean and nurse them all.

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Pieface on the edge of the porch roof.

I still remember the daily miracle of the rapid growth and development of four black kittens, one gray and white, one dark tabby with white and one all-over dark tabby—and I even remember their birth order, but that’s probably too much detail. Six weeks, the magical time for kittens to be taken from their mother and adopted, was over before we knew it, and my parents found homes for a few of the kittens, kept one and took the rest to the shelter as everyone did then.

Pieface, the dark tabby with Bootsie’s white markings and a very flat nose, hence his name, and Bootsie went out every night as a team and hunted the old pasture across the street, killing things and dragging them back, feasting on the good parts but always leaving a choice morsel for us. My mother had thought Pieface was a girl, but the veterinarian called to ask if we wanted to neuter our boy, which we did. When he was about three, however, my mother determined that Pieface had to go, though he was cuddly and purring and friendly to everyone, friendlier than his mother Bootsie would ever be. I remember remarks about hunting and the mess he made and fleas. I did not go, and it apparently took two tries to leave him there. My mother related how Pieface was draped over her arm in the front seat of the car, and as they approached the shelter she just said, “Al…”, and my father turned around and they came home. But a few weeks later they went again and surrendered him, though I never understood what the problem was and was left with an empty sadness at his loss.

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Pieface returns with “something” in his mouth.

The importance of an animal in my life

Looking back at it all now, I am shocked at every aspect of the adoptions and how we took care of them, or rather how careless we seemed with the whole process, from the kitten in the cardboard box under the tree to the roaming cat killing everything from bunnies to garter snakes and taking cats off to shelters when we didn’t want them.

It seems like more pain than joy in the retelling, and with all the losses, the messes, the unwanted kittens, anyone might think that animals were just a trouble to live with, and if it was just about cleaning up after them then, indeed, why would anyone bother?

But I wanted that bond with an animal before I had even adopted one. It was as real as the bond with a human and felt much safer, and somehow I knew that relationship went way beyond being a caretaker to being a friend.

cat on TV looking at child
Bootsie scrutinizes the alien being (my niece Jennifer) from a safe vantage atop the TV.

Bootsie was never playful beyond kittenhood and as an adult preferred not to be touched, but would curl up on my lap or beside me on a chair and always slept with me, and filled a supervisory role while I worked on some art or craft project. And that was all I had ever wanted from the beginning, a quiet, gentle presence to curl up with. If she had been boisterous and playful I would have been just as devoted to her. It was not because of what she did, it was because she and I had bonded that first night while she was still in the cage in the shelter, and we would accept each other unconditionally. I followed her rules without question.

And so it has been with each of the cats who has come to spend some part of my life, days, months, years, decades, and by extension other animals, wild and domestic, that we at least have an understanding if not a deep and compassionate bond. But I remember two years in college when I was away from Bootsie and yearned for an animal in my life, and though I reached for every animal available, and even tried to rescue a few cats I’d found wandering, taking them in and feeding them and finding someone who could take them, friends’ cats and dogs and other cats didn’t seem to count, and I know that for me the bond with animals, especially cats, is permanent and deep. I can not imagine my life not shared with at least one cat who is my companion, my inspiration and my muse.

two girls with cat
Jennifer gives Bootsie a kiss while I hold Bootsie in place; she looks less than thrilled.

I think I knew I was a cat person as soon as the first kitten entered my life, and Bootsie reinforced that as my devotion grew. I played with others’ dogs, walked peoples’ dogs for fun and generally enjoyed their company, but the erratic schedule of a creative person and my selfish need for long periods of concentration and quiet not even broken by meals told me I couldn’t be a very good companion for a dog, though a cat can sleep on my desk, turn over and open one eye to see what I’m up to, then close it and go back to sleep if I am still in my creative fugue, and we all get a long just fine.

When Bootsie joined me at college in my junior year, I had already adopted a cat from a farmer I had met because I just loved cats and needed a cat in my life. Roommates had cats and even before I graduated there began the eventual parade of castaways, rescues, expectant mothers, orphaned kittens, a never-ending supply of unwanted cats brought to my notice by my deep relationship with that first cat.

Changing the bad, finding the good

From those rough beginnings and witnessing with later rescues injuries, illnesses and abuse, I also learned that I didn’t have to follow what was the prevailing habits of cat care. I decided that keeping them inside, spaying and neutering as soon as possible and providing an adequate diet and health care helps alleviate much of the messes, kittens and losses and leaves much more room for joy and love. Caring for companion animals has changed dramatically over the past decades, especially cats, shelter adoptions are very different, and I am grateful that there are simply fewer cats who need homes than there were when I was a child, though there are still far too many, and too many who are neglected, abused and homeless.

Ceramic tile with cat
Bootsie on a ceramic tile from tenth-grade ceramics.

You can probably see who I am today in regard to cats and other animals in those early experiences. I had actually forgotten quite a bit of the details and didn’t piece it all together myself until I sold my mother’s house, packing things up to move them, and collected photos and mementos and saw the connections between what happened then and what I have grown to feel is best for cats and pets in general.

Today I’m an artist and a writer, and in remembering those early encounters with animals, quietly studying and experiencing, I now recognize my habit of gathering details for later use, and my intense devotion to whatever is my favorite subject—I could probably draw that litter of kittens nursing on Bootsie in the cardboard box. But from Bootsie, cats have always been my muse and when the time came to begin writing, my first poem was about how much I missed Bootsie while I was away at school, and my first short story had an endangered cat as the subject (I have unfortunately lost it); later I began drawing and painting and my cats were my first subjects as I tried out each new medium and style.

“Solstice Moon”, poem and illustration © B.E. Kazmarski

The October after I graduated college in 1983 I purchased my first camera, a fully-manual Pentax, and for the first year I used only black and white film in order to learn composition and how to use all the manual settings on my camera without the distraction of color. Of course, my first subjects were my cats, including Bootsie, then 13.

Some artsy shots of Bootsie from 1983.
Some artsy shots of Bootsie from 1983.

As my household grew I found painting their images an excellent way to share with others my affection for them, my portfolio is heavily weighted in images of them and I began painting portraits of others’ cats and then dogs as well, and from there my current career was born as I moved out into other subjects and began producing merchandise bearing the art I created. I would not expect to earn my living by this but wanted to work in a way that I could stay close to my art, so I arranged that after years of working a day job and freelancing as a graphic designer and writer, I dropped the day job and am entirely freelance, but this creative activity and working at home keeps me close to my art and gives me more time for it than other occupations would. And I am constantly supervised and surrounded by feline muses.

The unintended gift

So even though the actual gift my parents intended to give me all those years ago was a kitten, the gift they unintentionally gave me was the awakening of my love for companion animals, especially cats, and an introduction to my muse and my life as a creative person. I experienced first hand the pain and suffering that resulted from cats given minimum care and often not even fed, who weren’t spayed and neutered, left to roam, constantly reproducing, given away, abused and considered worthless, and decided my cats would never live like that, eventually that no cats should live like that. Just as it was in the beginning when losing two kittens didn’t dissuade me from trying yet again, so, in the ensuing years and more losses, I still happily welcome another cat into my life for the joy and love we would share and the inspiration I would find. I receive that gift every day.

The round cornered ones were in a box in my mother’s house, and I’m so glad I found them.

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